Thank you Autumn.
I remember asking you for the warmth of people. I had gotten used to the feeling of the cold after so long. What you provided me with Autumn was some amazing people, but with those people also came some important lessons. Life is something where you can never know everything, there is always something about you that may come as a surprise. With the warmth of others I found what true friendship was, I learned many things along the way and I am so glad I did. The warmth of my friends means that whenever I need help, there is always someone to go to.
However with life lessons can also come disappointments, one of these being something else that I asked you for.. Someone Special. Now in the sense of that being someone I had fallen in love with i regrettably have to say that that did happen. Yes you did provide me with someone which means you're job was done. Next time Autumn please help me find someone that feels the same way.. and not for someone else that I was also close to. It didn't quite work out.
Autumn there is one thing that you have got completely right. I asked you to help find myself, and in some ways I guess you have. I have learnt a lot about myself over time, and when I sat down and thought about it, I realised over the past couple of weeks is where I have found myself the most. Albeit that these moments have been where I have been in fear & shaking, or when I have been listening to music and simply crying; people learn the most about you when you are at your most vulnerable. I guess this is true for self-discovery also.
I talked to you about memories... and how you are the season that presents to me the most of them. So many people do not take enough time out of their lives to reflect on things that have happened to them. Memories are not something I have exactly been short of this season.. Unfortunately the bad seem to outweigh the good. Some of them I am rather fond of, like sitting in Costa with my friends laughing away everything that was wrong. Enjoying time with loved ones seem to have that effect. Although unfortunately certain loved ones have become less loved, and more exhausting.
Autumn if there is one thing you have taught me over these past months, its that nothing really lasts that long. Looking at you has proved that for me. Summer seemed to last forever, I have always been rather fond of her; long nights and no responsibilities never seemed so appealing to me. However with her departure came your return, and although I love you Autumn; I am glad that Winter has come. Seasons do not last that long, and your family are forever changing between the four. Likewise friendships & relationships last around the same amount of time. The ones that are not worth holding onto anyway.
From the girl, that learnt a lot of lessons during your stay.
Thankyou.
Autumn there is one thing that you have got completely right. I asked you to help find myself, and in some ways I guess you have. I have learnt a lot about myself over time, and when I sat down and thought about it, I realised over the past couple of weeks is where I have found myself the most. Albeit that these moments have been where I have been in fear & shaking, or when I have been listening to music and simply crying; people learn the most about you when you are at your most vulnerable. I guess this is true for self-discovery also.
I talked to you about memories... and how you are the season that presents to me the most of them. So many people do not take enough time out of their lives to reflect on things that have happened to them. Memories are not something I have exactly been short of this season.. Unfortunately the bad seem to outweigh the good. Some of them I am rather fond of, like sitting in Costa with my friends laughing away everything that was wrong. Enjoying time with loved ones seem to have that effect. Although unfortunately certain loved ones have become less loved, and more exhausting.
Autumn if there is one thing you have taught me over these past months, its that nothing really lasts that long. Looking at you has proved that for me. Summer seemed to last forever, I have always been rather fond of her; long nights and no responsibilities never seemed so appealing to me. However with her departure came your return, and although I love you Autumn; I am glad that Winter has come. Seasons do not last that long, and your family are forever changing between the four. Likewise friendships & relationships last around the same amount of time. The ones that are not worth holding onto anyway.
From the girl, that learnt a lot of lessons during your stay.
Thankyou.
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